- Was it following Peter? (The last straw at least).
- Was it getting carried away with the Young Drunk Punk guessing challenge?
- Was it replying to and favoriting most of her tweets?
- Was it some of my more silly comments?
- If any apply, it's likely a combination.
- I hope the seal gag didn't play a huge role.
What she doesn't know is that I was tracking her through a third party service, so I still get her tweets. Are you kidding me? Do you think I would just monitor the Twitter feeds endlessly? I did also catch up by visiting her profile page but even that would require logging in with no certainty of new stuff. No, I get emailed her tweets. Then I would try to impress her, help her, or otherwise do something good for, and supportive of, her. My tweet activity is little compared to the impact of my presence if I got my wish to spend time with her. That's my perception.
I set out to capture her interest. And I did make good impressions at first. It's hard to accept that I ruined those. I still get mixed signals even after the block.
I want to believe that she was disengaging and now pushing me away because she actually likes me and is trying hard to resist temptation. That's what I want. My attention is just a pin-drop in the flood of attention she gets from social media, so I doubt that I was really that over the line (with possible exception of yesterday).
I recently put out my more critical thoughts about her make-up use and her skills. I shared these because I'm trying to encourage her to be the best she can be. People who just butter her up all the time aren't helping her the most. I compliment her most of the time but I occasionally challenge her. That's healthy and that shows that I don't over-romanticize her. I see her as a real person that can improve.
I hope she reexamines her decision and lets me back in with some friendly guidelines. I hope she lets me in for real in the near future. It's nice to see her very happy today unlike yesterday. Of course, I wish to be a part of it: that would be even nicer. I want to know, point by point, why this isn't good for her?! Why I'm not good?
I know she never asked for any of this. However, here I am.